Red Packets, Mandrin Oranges and Tacky Songs
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Ok... so the chinese new year passed by quite quickly tg cause i cant stand any more of that music playin everywher.
Well, saturday night i went for reunion dinner at my mom's friend's house. The stuff was halal cause like the maid is indonesian and they never cook pork. But still i didnt touch the chicken... stickin to the fish and veggies (four diff types). I got $10 from the dad and $6 from her. Tomoro goin sy house. Actually supposed to go to Darly's today with melvin n gang but i had other plans.
Then sunday watched Memoirs of a Geisha. Really good movie. "Mine is a story that should never be told..." The shoes they have to wear are so ridiculous and Matsumomo is such a supreme bitch... in a bad way. And i love Sayuri's eyes... even though in real life no asian ever has blue eyes unless he's an albino.
Went east coast park yesterday. Really boring. Was supposed to ride bike but the place was so crowded, mostly indians and malays la... so i just like waded... took some pics of the sky and caught 2 crabs. Was supposed to release them today but forgot.
Qiang wanted like a class outing today cause he was busy workin wen we had the others, so i help him sms ppl. Only like half the people replied. And sumore daniel decided to go ang pow collectin today. So it was just me, sy, jp and qiang. Went to sentosa. Jp the wannabe brought his skateboard. And he tried completing the poser image with his new haircut. At least it was nice. Ouh and i took a vid of him nearly falling off the board and sy attackin him. So we like took the long way to the beach...through the dragon trail. Then you know siloso beach has those little offshore islands... one of which is reachable by bridge? Yeah, we went there. TG it wasnt that sunny so i didnt burn but i still look real dark in one of the pics i'm gonna upload to friendster. Maybe i shouldnt cause i look like a total stick there. Anyway, only i and sy brought a change of shorts and underwear. The other two didnt but embraced the water with our persuasion. By persuasion, i mean when they got close enough, we bombarded them with water and sand. Yeah. We didnt really have much to do so sy gave us a personality test. Supposedly i see myself as a deer and my future spouse as a snake. Supposedly my generosity is 10, jp's is 20 and qiang is a 1. Supposedly i only have space for a social circle of two. Supposedly i my heart is made of glass, jp's is porcelain, and my love for my spouse is only a quarter. And supposedly my sex drive is 5 and qiang is a 3.
We tried building a sandcastle but all it looked like was a huge cake with 3 small piramids on top. After squashing it, we buried sy. Took a long time. Then we added breasts and a very and a little pyramid over his unspeakable.
The best thing was, when we were like the only ones there, the lifeguards closed the bridge. They whistled furiously at anyone who tried to cross it but didnt tell us to get back to mainland. It was so uber cool, like we were vip's who rented that place. Awesome. I wonder wat the people on the other side thought of us.
Then the sun started shining and the other 3 wanted to tan. But obviously i dont need any. And i was so clumsy to ram my foot into this wood thingie sticking out of the ground. My toe was bleeding and i was screaming like a bitch. For fun of course. We were singing like josh groban over and over. There were a lot of indian ppl moving from one side of the beach. Migrating for mating season, sy said. Then we got changed got back to the other side. After a much needed shit, we took the chairlift. I didnt know it was gonna be so scary. And i didnt know qiang was also scared of heights. Or maybe he was fakin it. But i managed to take a real good scenic picture from way up. Had an early dinner at Subway then took the subway home. Or as we call it, mrt.
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9:52 PM
Symbian
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
WoHOO!(jumping around dancing like a retard). I just got the N70. Yay. My dad got it for me cause he has like $200 starhub vouchers. So now my number has changed, cause of this 3G sim card thingie, long story i'm not gonna explain. I got the ivory one cause like the silver one is more common(the 3 ppl in my extended family who have it have the silver). Cant wait till its operational. Gotta charge it like 10 hours first. And stupid me, i accidentally set the place as beijing. Couldnt i have accidentally set it at a more desirable place...say paris or milan? Ah well, thats my chinky phone for you... i guess i'll call it Ben.
Ouh and i managed to finish one more drawin for my portfolio. 2 more to go. And also i have to transfer the pics to the com from my 7270 before i let it go.
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7:20 PM
Bare
Friday, January 20, 2006
Ok, so i havent written posts of this nature in a long time. I dont think i've ever written this much. I mean its impossible to always be happy rite? This is an extract from a little book i have, written a week or so ago. Here goes...
Sitting up late, its past midnight. Its been a cold few days. Mostly only outside. Its always only on the outside now. I rarely feel anymore. No hate. No fear. No sadness. No real joy. I used to be confused, all wrapped up in my feelings, but now I'm just numb. I feel so shallow. No layers anymore. Happy is happy. Angry is angry. Its been quite long since i've felt sad. The most recent time i've shed tears is only because of a movie. So maybe i'm not heartless, but i'm cold and empty. I'm more of a shell now than i've ever been before. I just keep laying on the paint coz thats what they wanna see isnt it? Joy and bright colours. Surface trivial matters. Its easier this way. You keep them happy and they dont ask questions.
Now as i reflect, i dont feel my problems. They just roll around in my skull. Aimless thoughts before i fall asleep. Even that is difficult sometimes. My dreams of late have been both weird and traumatic. They too have lost their meaning. All my desire of finding salvation has collapsed to a handful of thoughts. But still i keep hoping it happens. I keep hoping it either goes one way or the other. Hanging in between is so monotonous and frustrating. But i'm helpless. I can only watch and wait. Even the inevitable is shrouded.
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6:59 PM
Blond or Blonde?
Went to the temasek poly open house today after friday prayer, a first for my cousin's fiance cause he just converted and stuff. And i cant believe he finds it agonising to sit in that position... um you know likesit on the balls of your feet? The japanese kind i think. yeah. And its even uncomfortable for him to sit cross legged. I guess only asians do that.
Actually i planned to go alone but then sy called, so we met up with yk then went. The fashion show this year wasnt as good as last year's. But a poster gave me a wake-up call...regarding the interviews. I still havent got my portfolio put together. So ok, since my dad offered to get me the N70, i'll stop working this sunday and finish up my portfolio next week. I need to do one drawing per day. And i also need to go to my other cousin's house to use her usb cable to transfer the pics i have in my phone... so i can print it out and use it also. Its gonna be hectic. Just hope i'll somehow findt that singuler strand of hardworking i have amongst my weave of lazy fibres.
Yeah so i met up with sean and we talked a lot about a whole lot of stuff on the way back. And he told me that a lot of people over-dress at tp. Shit, all hopes of me standing out are gone. Crap. ouh and sy, sorry i left you behind.
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6:46 PM
Grossissement
The past few days have been kinda bad. But still better than the 1st few days. Cause i learnt ways of keeping myself busy... Idling, singing, playing with the prams, folding clothes in the mens departmant and reading the instructions behind hair products. And i also brought in a book to read. Helps me take away at least 2 hours a day.
And i also have seen a lot of strange things. There's this sign at the children's department that says "disney the pooh". Isnt it supposed to be winnie? And there was this woman who was seriously balding. I mean she had a really visible bald spot. I've seen 4 butches so far. One was like in her forties. She looked like a man from the waist down, with big arms and such, but her face is slightly feminine and her voice is normal. Later, another woman came to meet her, also spotting a butch haircut except the difference was that she had breasts, or wasnt trying to hide them like the other one. Lesbian couple. There was another one, whose face looked more boyish but her small frame and voice gave her away. Another young one, till now i dunno if its a guy or girl, but it had a sec school girlfriend with it, some hugging happened. Then yesterday, i saw like, why was a guy looking for a bra? i mean seriously, as a gift? So i went around to get a side view, and yes, it was a guy. Thats weird, i wondered if he knew his gf's size. Then i saw from the back, through the t-shirt, the outline of a bra. Not those normal thin ones, but more like a sports bra. Maybe it was the thing it used to flatten her boobs. Ouh, and the section she was at was the for like young girls or very flat chested women. Speaking of boobs, they sell these like fake ones that you put in your bra, you know, for those not so generously gifted. They feel so real.
There was also this family that came twice. Both the children were retarded. I'm not insulting them or anything, but they looked medically retarded. As in the bigger one, a boy, looked like 5 or 6 but was still drooling down his front. Both couldnt speak but made spastic noises. And both the children had this weird fettish for touching stuff in this awkward way. It looks like they're trying to grab something but they just keep doing that action on diff surfaces.
I shall show you if i meet you. And i pity the parents, cause like, you may have A retarded child but to have both that way...
There are also stupid people. I heard this fillipina woman say seken ploor(second floor) to someone over the phone. Most of them cant say seven as well, they'll go "seben". And this real bimbo auntie, (well you cant call her a bimbo cause she's ugly) asked what size the product was, pointing to it. I said super single. Guess what she said. "Super king ah? Wah so big!" You know those japanese anime cartoons where if the characters have a 'diao' moment, they'll have a big water droplet at the side or back of the head? Yeah, mine was so big i could fit a watermelon in it. And you know, around her chin, she had wht looked like huge pimples, except they were flesh. It looks like her face is melting. She'd fit right at home at a madam tussad's exhibiton.
There are also people who really get on my nerves. Like this granma who was telling me all sorts of stuff, like her daughter scolds her, while i was eating. She was so fussy, no wonder her daughter scolds her. This other woman, while i was workin, was talkin to the salesgirl at the lingerie department. At first glance, she looked professional, with her black blazer and gold tag and what not. She shouldnt have opened her mouth because it set her back ten levels in society to a market auntie. Omg, the way she spoke was so frustrating. She speaks like that witch, Yubaba from spirited away, except worse. And she keeps over-emoting everything that she could rival the drama queen herself, Madame julia huang, the vampiress. (for those who dunno her, she is a too over-expresive ancient teacher i know, yes, i used 2 extremes side my side. Grammatically wrong but logically correct). And worse, she looked so ugly to begin with, but was still contorting her face. Even though she wasnt talkin to me, her voice carried so far and loud, that it sounded worse than those horrible chinese new year songs that sounded from the speakers.
Enough bitching for one time. There's this really cute bag i saw. It looks like a grub, or beetle. I'm so gonna get it. And also, these real hot pair of black converses are on my list of to-buy when i finally get paid. I dont see why They have to wait a month after my last day to pay me. Wats up with that?
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11:10 AM
Ching
Sunday, January 15, 2006
I forgot to add one more thing i hate about john little. Its the only store that has started playing the horrible chinky songs already. I mean chinese new year is more than 2 weeks away. Even the toilet is playin 98.7. And the worst part is, they only have like 4 songs and they keep playin it over and OVER again. They're so annoying. Nursery rhymes are a thousand times more tasteful.
Anyway, i think i may get used to the job. But only because yesterday was saturday and there were many customers. Today's sunday...hope there'll be more. Haiz... then monday to thurs will be incredibly boring, so i'll bring a book in to read (i'm currently reading the biography of Malcolm X). Then hopefully i get the off day on friday as i'm gonna request tomoro.
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10:38 AM
Uncomfortable Comfortables
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Well, today, i started a job as a bedsheet promoter at john little at Compass Point. Damn Ah Heng tell jeremy to tell me to go there at 9.45 wen the shop ony open at 11. Ah Heng is the rather unreliable coordinator... so i've heard. Its impossible to say his name over the phone without sounding like a stuck up bitch unless you say it with a singlish slang. Anyways, i found it really dodgy cause there's no like application form from the company itself(Eadeco...distributes the Akemi, a brand of bed stuff) so like i dont even know how i'll get paid. Well tomoro i'll ask him personally. Skali at the end of it all they never pay us sia. Well, tomoro he's gotta sign this paper for john little to give me the promoter tag, so i'll photocopy that and if(touch wood) some cheating does occur, i can easily make a court case. Maybe i'm being a little to suspicious. Never hurts to be careful.
So like at 11.30 the new stocks came. It was hurting my back crryin all the packages. Thank god this other girl, Alvina(sounds like i'm trying to tease a sissy named alvin) from another branch came to help and the warehouse ppl also helped to display. I liked pasting the price tags. Ok, alvina looks malay even though she's chinese and speaks limited english, that 2 malay women spoke to her in malay and a chinese woman told her that its ok to eat fom a certain stall cause it was vegetarian. And somehow, she told me that once she stayed beck till like 1 a.m. working for god knows what reason. There's no way i'm ever gonna do that just because stocks came late. Well, hopefully the present stock will last till i leave.
After like a 4.30 lunch, i was alone on there. It was so freakin borin. OUh and i saw this pillow, whher on the packaging, it said adult and unisex. I mean who has ever heard a special pillow for male and female. Ok there was this one stupid japan product thats in the shape of a guy's arm and shoulders.
There are two things i hate about this job. 1. i have no frikin colleages to talk to no matter how retarded they may be. On my right is the lingerie department and on my left is the baby department. 2. Because of the nature of the things i sell, the only customers i have are aunties. And even though there are some young couples, they are outshined by the slum aunties that speak their dialect with the most annoying nasal tone or like one was tellin another at the top of her voice, the difference between fitted and non, "Laber, Laber" referring to the elastic around the edges. Luckily if i go insane from frustration or lack of human interaction, i pass by Woodbridge on the way home. I'm not gonna go on for long. Gonna stop at the end of feb. Hope i can last. Wish me luck.
I'll end off by sayin, Avenged Sevenfold totally rocks. Dresden Dolls aint too bad either. They're twisted.
Morbidity Exposed
10:15 PM
Banana Dacories
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Well, yesterday was hari raya. The one wher you dont get a lot of money. As always, because of my dad's consistent unpunctuality, we had to pray at an indian mosque where i dont understand a single word the pastor is saying. At least the place was nice. There was one part wher there was like this watery stone garden thingie and the stepping stones looked like they were suspended on the surface. The part where the water came out of the wall was cool too.
Then i got back for the breakfast, then started gettin ready at my aunt's house. Unfortunately, i ran into some hair problems, cause like i wanted my fringe to stand up and curve back in the middle, but after flat ironing it, it kept flopping to the sides. So after like 10 mins of fussing, i just got my wax out and used a lot to make this sorta spiky thing that half flopped to one side. Not bad though. should try that again. I used the white shirt with the brown embroidery that my dad got for me with my brown cordroy pants and my white leather Passporte shoes.
Went back to my house, everyone was there already. Started chattin with the two usual cousins after lunch. One is so girly(she's a girl btw) she keeps giggling in between telling us of close encounters with the cute kind at school. Ouh and i didnt mention, my 3 yr old 'niece' has a crush on me. Yes ladies, i'm irresistable.
Ok, so later about 6, after my dad had his nap we went to my gran's house on my mom's side. I actually wanted to leave earlier so we could be back by 7 to watch the Hot Chick. But well. So when we got there, i and my sis had some real good mee soto but the flattest root beer i have ever drunk. And my mom was real pmsy. Talking normally one moment, shouting the next. I always found her to be over-sensitive.
At the end of it all, i only managed to watch like 20 mins of the movie and only collected like 60 dollars. Its not fair coz most of the friends i know getr like more than 300 bucks at chinese new year and i only get like 260 over both hari rayas. Ah well. And because i found out that 2 other cousins also bought the N70, i will be getting the N90 as soon as i get my second pay... after getting a job.
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3:28 PM
Tears of the Heavens
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Rain, rain go away. Its been raining the whole day without any breaks. No glimpse of sunlight. The cold persists. The darkness seems eternal. Its almost depressing. Almost. But i dont mind... i'm not much of a sun lover anyway. Part of my vampire heritage i guess. Heheh.
How can so much water be up there? But i guess its been building up. All those dark clouds and half-hearted brief showers yesterday. But strangely, its not stormy at all. No thunder. Only a single flash of lightning. Its like the despair of a thousand maidens. No fury in their hearts whatsoever. Chanced upon a devastation, their helplessness is absolute.
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8:15 PM
Faux Suede Couches
Thursday, January 05, 2006
The beginning of a new year. 2006. Thank god i'm not goin to school yet cause i know usually in the first week i'll be writing the previous year on all worksheets. This shall be a time of change. Those who know me will find it shocking that i chopped my hair off. Nearly half my fringe was decapitated by yours truely. Yes. Was i in my right mind? i dunno. But if someone had told me i was going to do this 2 months ago i would have called you psycho. I dunno i gues it was a picture of me in the pool with some other guys at jon's house. I somehow didnt like the look of the hair down the side of my face...also recalling previos pics. Dont get me wrong, i think that a long fringe obscuring one eye is kickass but well it also has to go to the side sometimes and when it does, it doesnt look good. So i'm probably just gonna dye it sometime in may. And maybe, if all my hair has grown enough, permanent straightening byotch.
Oh yeah and i've thought of new year resolutions. 1. Excercise more. Ok, since technically i dont excercise at all besides shoppin, it should be just 'start exercisin' I don wanna look like such a wimp anymore. So i'm gonna jog to build up my stamina so i dont die in the army. And i'm gonna get weights, just so my arms arent mistaken for wooden rulers. 2. Save money....better. Cause i know i'm a total ass for materialism, but i have to learn to save. Even if its just 50 cents a day.
OK, went out with aa, sy, jp and jon yesterday. After a nice dinner at the ttsh foodcourt, we went to chill at starbucks. By chilling i mean joking about dirty stuff. Yeah. It was a really good time but i had a real headache. Anyways, i'm gonna miss aaron. I mean i wasnt that close to him las year but this year...i dunno. And because of him i had my first sleepover. The time he's been here has been totally kickass. Lanning, jokin, not forgetting trolleying. Cant wait till he comes back next year.
Morbidity Exposed
8:18 PM
Hiers Biag
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Went to Jon's house las thurs after lanning with s1. Tried skateboarding... not easy. Ouh and jp bought a skateboard after tryin it the previous day... even though he's like not too good at it. But at least its cheaper than a pair of blades. Then we played like 2 hours of hardcore soccer in the basement carpark. It was such a frikin workout. I mean i like never excercise(besides shoppin) and suddenly its like way too much. It was one of my best performances... if i do say so myself. Me and aaron on one side, jp and dan on the other. I was like an octopus.. usin my 'long legs' to an advantage to steal the ball away. It came at a price though. My legs and hips were so frikin sore the next day.
So i got to Jon's house at like 4.15 on friday. Was gonna sleep there that night and the night after. The moment i came, we went swimming... we bein me, aaron, jon, daniel, jp, sy and yong hui. The water was freezin. There was stupid stuff like jumpin from guys backs and throwin people into the water. After three throws, yh had so many red marks. Then they played somethin like waterpolo with deck chairs as goal posts. I didnt join in coz even after 2 tbs of panadol extra and usin ointment, my legs were still sore. We went back up at like 6+ washed up and the rest went to start the barbecue. Sy followed me to bk to buy food coz of course the stuff wasnt halal. Benjamin came to spend the night as well. So after that we all talked about school days. The psycho teachers, and silly students. Then yh left and we cleared the stuff, went up played some xbox and com then we went to sleep at the balcony and tell ghost stories. The only one that really freaked me out was sy's recount of the ghostly head above jovinder's head in a picture at the sec 3 camp. Then aaron suggested we go for a walk. So we did at like 2.30 in the morning. I looked like a fashion disaster in my red t-shirt, black polyester pants and brown skate shoes. But whose gonna see? We walked right in the middle of the street coz there were like no cars around. Went to cheers for snacks, got back and watched kill bill till like 6+.
Woke up at like 8.45 and couldnt go back to sleep. So we sorta slacke around before we all left, me to go home, sy to meet up with 4st guys and aa and jp to shop around.
Met up with my mom at 5.30 cause she wanted to get me a shirt for xmas. I actually saw this really hot one that was like torn and stitched at the sides, but the sleeves were short even in L size. So i picke out this ala cowboy blue checked shirt which looks like there's a long sleeved t-shirt inside. Then after a dinner of batterd fish and shrimp and escargot cooked with olive oil and garlic topped with melted cheese that was so damn nice, went window shoppin before meetin up with sy, dan, iven and sh. We actually planned to go esplanade to see the fireworks, but benji, who met us a while later outside taka, told us that it was totally packed. So we kinda wandered around, there were many ppl sellin that snow spray thing... i was expecting the string one. Met up with some 4sa guys, walked around HMV, got drinks at 7-11 then started walkin towards taka again. Then you could see racism where these bengs sprayed vigorously at indian ppl. But it was really like little india that night. Ok, the walkway was like a traffic jam and i felt like i was on safari... being hunted, the hunters carrying foam guns. It was like tryin to avoid rain, avoiding the spray. It was like a frenzy, people on the side herding us sheep. Then i went to like a higher spot to escape but i couldnt move forward coz of a barricade just as the countdown began... some loud thundering sound comin from huge speakers. Then it was like everyone was spraying at the same time and you could swear there was a blizzard in sweltering sg. But the thing is... the smell or particles or watever get in your nasal passages and i was coughing like i had asthma again. Then, suddenly, the crown just depressed and started coming to wher i was to escape. So they like smushed everyone and kept trying to move forward but there were bloody barricades there you morons! So ok, behing me was a railing, and beyond that bushes. So people crushed me against the railing and i climbed over it in the most bitchy way possible, pushin the idiots away with my elbows and legs. Those morons deserve a good kick. So i walked towards cali fitness, met my sy, who also decided he had enough of this, so we straightaway took a cab back to jon's house...at the price of the midnight surcharge. Ah... the feeling of nobody pushing against me was so welcoming. Anyway, i still kept my spray can and we made videos... such as me spouting foam and sy scratchin off dandruff. Got back... played dota, some fatal frame 2 on jp's xbox which, to be honest, was kinda scary. Went to sleep at like 5+.
Haiz... back to boredom. I really hope i can get a job by the end of this week.
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1:22 PM
