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A Tear in the Fabric Saturday, July 02, 2005

Ok, i sorta alredy typed two paragraphs but somehow, when i pressed backspace, it went to the previos page. Anyway, its 11.29 p.m. according to my computer. The rest of my family is watchin batman begins on dvd, although the sound sucks cause its pirated.

I guess people are like dvd's or vcd's. Those who can be original and genuine at the same time have it good. Clear images, sharp surround sound. Not eveyone is lucky enough to be able to show the inside of the fabric they have so tediously weaved around themselves. These people are artists, in a weird kind of way. Potters- building high and sturdy walls around themselves so magnificent that they are lost within. Actors- getting up every morning deciding how to portray their made up character this day. Brilliant actors will be awarded Oscars; acception into society. Fashion designers-fabricating such impressive personalities that they parade down the catwalk of life, from couture to mainstream.

Maybe thats why i love the entertainment business. You could be whoever you choose to be. You can escape your rag of a life and leap into new skin, walk in the shoes of Tom Cruise or Jennifer Lopez. People say art is a form of expression, and i believe it. Not the crap everyone says, like "the art of cooking" or "martial arts". Its not really what looks nice. Its what makes you feel. Its how you pour all your ache into the material. The reason why people who do art based on emotion feel good when they are praised is because its like their personality is being accepted. Maybe i dont really put this into practice, and feel proud due to the work i have put in. It is a way to sorta make people like you for what you really are.

I know this all sound like a load of crap to many, but i think this is really essential. Going back to the basics. Letting out our own philosophies that are shared by many.

I love role playing. All the time i invent new characters with special powers so that when life becomes unbearable, i put on my invisible costume and fight all the demons and beasts that flood through my window or jump me in the corridors.